 Running along the shore Side stinging with the reminder Of too much smoke inhaled Feels good to move Sitting down Soft sand molds under my pull towards gravity Feel the spray of the sea The moisture of the mist Cooling, while my face feels hot I sit with what is And allow myself to sit with the ocean too  These are my footsteps. I think I have taken on some sort of genetic mutation ;)
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Today, to pull myself out of feeling overwhelmed, I practiced gratitude. A series of events has left me feeling very overwhelmed, while I am in growing acceptance of circumstances, I can choose the way I look at things. It can be easy to become overwhelmed sometimes, responsibilities can seem daunting. There is no doubt that there is a need for change sometimes, and it is good to be honest about what it may be, whether environmental, mental, the tasks at hand, people, etc. However, one of these ways to ease the feeling of being overwhelmed is through the practice of gratitude. When looking at the chaos in my life, I took a look at one of the things that I felt currently overwhelmed about. I have little structure within my world right now, and it can be difficult to manage sometimes, especially while amounts of pressure are under flux. I am currently finding myself with one week left in Morocco, up towards my next destination: London. This happened 3 weeks earlier than I expected, but there are push and pull factors that went into me making this decision. I have been thinking about how I need to quickly figure out how I will survive in London for the next month on a tight budget. I wonder how I will lighten a heavy heart in the midst of everything, knowing that I need extra self-care right now, and acknowledging that I am moving a little slower than usual. Thinking this way constantly can drain the tasty juice out of a good experience! I intentionally decided to think with gratitude. I first put myself in the position of being absent of my ability to currently travel. When thinking about taking away the situation I am in, I feel an impeding feeling of gratitude. I imagine myself without the responsibility, freedom, and opportunities for so many things in front of me, and in turn, I analyze the situation a little differently. I have the ability to travel, the financial resources to book a plane ticket to London, the opportunity to be reflective and self-reliant, the opportunity to learn about so many different things, the list goes on. I remember the growing urge to travel that I had for such a long time, the reality that people want the same thing so badly but may be unable to do it, and the reality that it is underneath my feet. I am extremely grateful to be in this situation. To expand that feeling, I said it out loud, with a smile. I believe this is something I will need to be consciously practicing, to form it into a habit. Tough times happen, things can be overwhelming, but feeling a sense of gratitude can help turn a mood into one that encompasses some positivity about one’s circumstances. |